I am back living with my in-laws. It's great, they are fabulous, I love them to death!
I miss my friends in CA. I miss having that great relationship with people nearby. I REALLY miss running with Deann. Well, we never ran together, but we did a running/kid swap (I watched her kid while she ran, then she watched mine while I ran). It worked out really well, and I was consistent, and because I was consistent, I was able to improve.
I felt like I was achieving something. I was climbing a mountain and getting closer to the top. It was a great feeling. I just felt AMAZING. And happy. I feel happy when I run. Something about those endorphins, I'm sure.
So I made a goal. I want to run a half marathon at the end of the summer. 13 miles. I just KNOW I can do it. Well, I knew I could do it back in CA when I was running three times a week, usually 9-10 miles a week. I just knew I could do it. If I kept running like I was running, and climbing that mountain, I would make my half marathon goal, I would!
Enter moving to UT.
So, no longer do I have Deann to run with :( So that means I don't run as often. I would ask my MIL to watch my kids for me to run (and she would do it) but I feel bad asking her to do any more. We're already mooching enough, living in their house. I just don't want her to feel like she has to raise my kids, too. I have nothing to give back, because she doesn't need anything from me. Except for me to keep my kids quiet so she can nap. But that's not really me doing anything anyway, since we're already in the way making noise so she can't nap. That means that me keeping the kids quiet is simply undoing the damage I've already done by having my kids here.
Let me clarify - my MIL does not make me feel bad for living here. It's something I do all to myself.
But anyway, so I haven't been running. We've been here for nearly 3 weeks, and I've ran a total of 3 times, for a total of about 5 miles. Yeah. Lame. Well, first off, the altitude is higher here anyway, so I knew it was going to take some adjusting.
On top of that, I live too far away from anyone really to take advantage of friends who want to do swaps with me. And I live at my in-laws, so it's not really great to have MORE kids here... which would mean that I would always been driving long distances to get to someone else's house. Lame.
So I'm faced with a horrible moral dilemma.
Do I quit my training? (for now... I would pick right back up where I left off if I can find someone close to watch the kids, or when I am in AR) Or do I just keep trying to train, and fail miserably?
I'm not a quitter, and I can't stand failure.
So what do I do? I don't have a good answer. Maybe you do?
Could you go running after your kids are in bed? Either really early or at night? Then you know they aren't burdening anyone because they're asleep--but your in-laws would be home and there in case of emergency.
ReplyDeleteWhere do your in-laws live? I would totally swap with you if you were close. [I'm in Lehi.] I ran really consistently last summer and then it got cold so I quit. I'm planning on starting to run here soon because it's going to warm up in the next month. Don't quit!
I think you should get a jogging stroller - it's kind of a challenge, but you could just think of it as a good work out. We'll talk about the swap a little more when I come by tomorrow. I'm looking forward to seeing you guys again.
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